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Not now. I look bloated.
So it starts like this...

My friend, Rita, changed her Facebook profile pic to a cute photo of her family. I wrote on her wall, “I love your profile pic. Everyone looks so good!” She replied, “Well you never pick a bad one, do you???”

Hmm. Excellent point.
 
Then our friend, Karen, chimed in saying she was tempted to change her profile pic to something hideous. Of course, knowing Karen, she did just that. Minutes later, a goofy photo of her appeared.

I laughed. "Game on," I posted on her wall. Then I dug into our computer archives. An awful photo of me had to be somewhere in there. Well, guess what? I couldn't find one. 

That's right. After scrolling through thousands of photos, I couldn't find even one where I looked bad. Sound conceited? I'm not. It's much sadder. Truth is, I'm just vain.

Whenever I see a bad picture of myself I delete it, no questions asked. I think, "No big deal. A lot of people do it." And that's true, but here's the thing: in the 3000+ photos we have on our family computer, I’m only in about 60.

Yep. I'm in less than 2% of our photos. What a legacy.

Granted, I’m the cameraman. During trips and family gatherings it's usually me taking the photos. Still, that 2% statistic really stinks, and it's all because I have to look perfect. In my quest to look flawless for future generations, I quite literally cut myself out of the picture.

What spurred me to delete so many photos of myself? Could I have had that many bad hair days? Does my smile keep looking crooked or my eyes keep drooping or did the photos just look like the real me instead of the idealized one I had in my head?

Well, effective immediately, I'm going to stop discarding every bad photo of myself. Life isn’t perfect and neither am I. My friends and family still love me the way I am. Why can't I love myself, too?
 
Years from now, when I have a grandchild in my lap and we’re looking at old family photos, I may not look great but at least I’ll be there. Present.

In the picture.

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Comments

02/23/2012 08:19

Nice post, Janene!...and I love the part about 2% legacy, its too funny ;) Well most times pictures don't lie, so nothing is perfect, unless we agree it is. When I'm in a good mood, I get a hearty laugh at my own 'not-so-perfect' photos....Otherwise I pull a 'not-so-perfect' face :)

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02/23/2012 08:27

That's the sad thing -- many of the 'awful' photos are just me being me! I have to go a little easier on myself. I do laugh, though. At least most of the time. Sometimes I just want to roll up into a ball!

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02/23/2012 08:56

Oh how I understand you! It's not that I hate taking pictures of myself, but sometimes I'd rather not, because I'm afraid I'll look ugly and people post them on Facebook anyway because they look nice and didn't crop me out!

However, I guess that slowly I've been starting to not care about it. If I look great, then that's great, if I look terrible, too bad! :P

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02/23/2012 09:04

I do that, too. What's wrong with us? I'm so glad your attitude is starting to change. Hopefully, mine will, too!

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02/23/2012 09:08

Janene, it is funny how upset people get when they see a bad photo of themselves. As if the camera were the final judge of their value as a person. I honestly don't think there are more than five photos of me in existence. Frankly, I'm not a big fan of recording things. I prefer to just let the hours and minutes slip away.

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02/23/2012 09:24

I see where you're coming from. I feel the same way about photos of me. The problem is that I love to look at photos of my loved ones -- good or bad, I don't care -- and I know they like seeing pictures of me. I didn't realize how selfish it was for me to delete so many photos of myself. My kids could care less about my ego. I should, too.

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02/23/2012 11:28

"Yep. I'm in less than 2% of our photos. What a legacy." HILARIOUS!

I would definitely take more pictures if my mustache, hump on my back or my muffin top would stop making appearances.

I want to take this photo challenge!

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02/23/2012 11:33

Jen, knock it off. You're beautiful! I WOULD like to see you make a funny face, though. That would be awesome!!

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02/23/2012 17:11

I'm still waiting for you to publish the REAL goofy picture... and I would pay CASH MONEY to see a picture of the beautiful Jennifer Sharp making a truly funny face for the camera.

STRAIGHT... CASH... HOMIE.

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02/23/2012 19:45

REAL goofy picture? Isn't that one goofy enough? And I'd love to see Jen make a truly funny face, though the one she posted on FB is groovy! Love it!!

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inmyredhead
02/25/2012 21:49

You are indeed a brave woman! I applaud you and want to be like you when I grow up and get over it. :-) The good news is... we can all tell that you are making that funny face on purpose. And it's a very good funny face at that. Is there anything you aren't good at? :-)

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02/27/2012 05:27

Thanks for the applause and, yes.I admit it. I am VERY good at making funny faces. I'm also good at dental floss macrame and burping the song 'Over the Rainbow.' ;)

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02/27/2012 22:00

Hi Janene, great to know you here. Your blog cool. Remember me? Triton, from Blog catalog.

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02/28/2012 05:29

Hellow, Triton, from Blog Catalog. I know you! Glad you stopped by.

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02/28/2012 04:35

I also keep very few pictures of myself, for some reason I am not photogenic.

I find I look better in my imagination.

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02/28/2012 05:34

I'm not very photogenic, either. As for looking better in my imagination? I laughed so hard. You're not the only one that feels that way!

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